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Shallow?

  • Oct. 19th, 2008 at 9:14 PM
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Here's a question for you: Is it shallow to want to be physically attracted to your partner? I was just dubbed shallow for wanting this, so what do you think??

The Bows!

  • Oct. 17th, 2008 at 5:16 PM
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Aren't they pretty? I think she sprayed perfume on them too, because they smell nice!! -^^-
Tell her she's Beautiful
My Lolita pen pal from Croatia sent me a letter 2 weeks ago and it FINALLY arrived. I was worried it got lost!! but it's here now, YAY! She made 2 bows for me... These are my first Lolita items and when I get my camera back I will show you all! :D

On my last post...

  • Oct. 15th, 2008 at 8:08 PM
ER again
I have Anorexia and sometimes I let it get a hold of me. Sorry for people I scared. I just needed to vent, I DID eat more, so don't worry about me.

Oct. 15th, 2008

  • 6:55 PM
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Written at 12:48 PM     Sometimes, I just don't know why I try. Recovery sucks. I want to be thin again. I miss weighing 105lbs and want to be smaller than ever. I would love to be 94lbs feeling tiny and thin. But I'm not I'm 126lbs of fucking fat. I hate myself. I'm disgusted by my body. I just ate ice cream and I want to throw it all up. and then some. I've eaten 412 calories today and burned 542 from exercise. I hate that. I shouldn't eat ice cream or drink Mountain Dew. I shouldn't eat at all or drink anything but water! I'm too fat. I hate me...

Of Updates and Apples

  • Oct. 11th, 2008 at 1:32 PM
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So the guy I had a date with canceled and said he wanted to be "just friends", most of my old friends (including that guy) think I'm a whore, and I've deleted said old friends from my networking sites and created a new AIM. *whew* That's a lot of drama in under one week! Oh well, all is well now! I have a honeycrisp apple!! Has anyone else heard of them? They are sweet and oh-so fabulous!!! :D

Poll!!

  • Oct. 5th, 2008 at 5:48 PM
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Poll #1273003 What should I wear??
This poll is closed.
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 5

What should I wear for my date on Wednesday??

View Answers

Army-patterned shirt and matching skirt with black boots.
0 (0.0%)

Girly denim & pink lace skirt with a tank top or graphic tee and sneakers.
4 (80.0%)

Jeans and a tee-shirt with high-heeled work boots.
1 (20.0%)

So there's this boy, right??

  • Oct. 5th, 2008 at 1:28 PM
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*SQUEE!!* He's cute and funny, nice and best of all- He's coming over for a DATE on Wednesday!!! *SQUEE!!!*

Okay, BREATH. Anyways, I need to figure out what I'm wearing. No, not Lolita! Even if I had the clothing, we might go on a hike to the reservoir in my town and I wouldn't want to ruin anything! I need cute hiker-girl clothes!! I'll think of options and post a poll for you all.

Later, mah loves...
Tori-chan
Sweet
Today I saw my beautiful baby cousin Gianna and I will be spending a few hours at her house tomorrow too. I love that little girl so very very much!!!

Also, I contacted a girl named Klara over at [info]lolitaletters and she is writing me a letter this week. I can't wait to get it in the mail. :)

My Dating Profile

  • Sep. 25th, 2008 at 12:46 PM
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Your dating personality profile:

Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have.
Your Top Ten Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Liberal
3. Romantic
4. Practical
5. Traditional
6. Adventurous
7. Shy
8. Religious
9. Intellectual
10. Sensual
Your date match profile:

Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.
Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Shy
2. Romantic
3. Big-Hearted
4. Religious
5. Adventurous
6. Traditional
7. Conservative
8. Practical
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Intellectual

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You

Shallot by Emilie Autumn

  • Sep. 24th, 2008 at 10:05 AM
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I can't believe this!

  • Sep. 22nd, 2008 at 8:29 PM
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So! I think my boyfriend left me for a video game... He played WoW all day yesterday and got to level 60 in one day!! Then he said that if I'm not getting enough attention, that it's not going to work! I can't believe this!!

Ugh.

  • Sep. 21st, 2008 at 4:39 PM
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I have done absolutely nothing today. Except eat. And oh, Goddess, did I eat! I ate non-stop!! And I'm still hungry!!! Ugh. I feel fat and depressed and I don't know what to do with myself right now. I'm sad and bored. My boyfriend was oblivious to my hinting that I needed him, but that's probably for the better since I don't want him to leave me... I just need to DO SOMETHING, but it's so hard to think when I'm like this! I just don't know. I wish I didn't feel this way, but I can't get out of it...

My 101 Things to-do in the next 1,001 Days

  • Sep. 20th, 2008 at 7:02 PM
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[[ABOUT THE CHALLENGE]]
(From Day Zero)

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Some common goal setting tips:
1. Be decisive. Know exactly what you want, why you want it, and how you plan to achieve it.

2. Stay Focused. Any goal requires sustained focus from beginning to end. Constantly evaluate your progress.

3. Welcome Failure. Frequently, very little is learned from a venture that did not experience failure in some form. Failure presents the opportunity to learn and makes the success more worthy.

4. Write down your goals. It clarifies your thinking and reinforces your commitment.

5. Keep your goals in sight. Review them frequently, and ensure that they are always at the forefront of your thinking.

[[MY PIECE IN THIS]]
From: Saturday, September 20, 2008
To: Saturday, June 18, 2011

My Goals:

  1. Blog weekly [1/143]

  2. Cast 10+ spells [0/10]

  3. Celebrate each sabbat at least once [0/8]

  4. Exercise 3+ times weekly [3/429]

  5. Get a job

  6. Finish school at University of Phoenix

  7. Learn basic conversational Japanese

  8. Go Vegetarian again

  9. Go Vegan again

  10. Save up at least $3,300.00 ($100.00 per month) [$0.00 saved]

  11. Complete 35+ drawings [0/35]

  12. Finish NaNoWriMo

  13. Learn to cook

  14. Start a Lolita journal and make 1+ entry per week [1/143]

  15. Finish the 100 day reality challenge I've started.

  16. Do another 100 day reality challenge.

  17. Cook for someone else.

  18. Bake for others.

  19. Give only homemade gifts one holiday season.

  20. Learn to sew.

  21. Sew an outfit for my Dollfie Dream

  22. Sew an outfit for myself

  23. Learn to knit

  24. Make 1+ plushies

  25. Complete a novel

  26. Write 50 poems or songs

  27. Buy issue #1 of Gothic & Lolita Bible (English Version)

  28. Buy every new issue of Gothic & Lolita Bible [0/7(?)]

  29. Buy my first (real) Asian Ball-Jointed Doll

  30. Buy or make my first Lolita Outfit

  31. Complete my Wicca: A Year and A Day course at ELC

  32. Grow my hair to my shoulders or longer

  33. Learn how to apply make-up better

  34. Learn my first song on guitar

  35. Make 12+ collages [0/12]

  36. Get a pen-pal

  37. Write a letter to Lizzy, thanking her for her friendship

  38. Find a tea that I like

  39. Complete the HTC creativity circle

  40. Buy new scissors

  41. Print only text (no pictures) for 4 weeks straight [0/28]

  42. Go over DBT with my therapist

  43. Go through The Self-Esteem Workbook

  44. Read my magazines

  45. Throw out old and unimportant magazines

  46. Finish the Harry Potter Series [4/7]

  47. Finish the Twilight Series [0/4]

  48. Finish the Sweep Series [4/14]

  49. Finish The Artist's Way

  50. Finish The 12 Secrets of Highly Creative Women

  51. Finish Hip Tranquil Chick

  52. Complete the Inner Temple of Witchcraft

  53. Begin and complete The Outer Temple of Witchcraft

  54. Complete my first year at Grey School

  55. Pass 20 different WitchSchool courses [7/20]

  56. Successfully write my essay on Astral Projection for ELC

  57. Write the 2nd ELC essay as well

  58. Read The Chronicles of Narnia

  59. Work for at least 5 moths

  60. Cook a meal for the family

  61. Make dessert for the family

  62. Learn how to shade better in drawing

  63. Take a picture monthly of my hair growth [1/32]

  64. Take 30 pictures that I'm not in [0/30]

  65. Make 10+ sculptures [0/10]

  66. Complete at least 1 video game (RPG)

  67. Clean my room

  68. Go through old papers

  69. Go through my clothes

  70. Create at least 1 piece of Guerrilla Art

  71. Make a website

  72. Go to Anime Boston again

  73. Plant something outside

  74. Make a zine

  75. Learn more songs on guitar

  76. Celebrate Princess Day on May 5th, 2009

  77. Celebrate Princess Day on May 5th, 2010

  78. Celebrate Princess Day on May 5th, 2011

  79. Read Confessions of a Shopaholic

  80. Read Fools Rush In

  81. Read Memoirs of a Geisha

  82. Learn about Ayurveda

  83. Read Flowers in the Attic

  84. Get fresh flowers for my room

  85. Try new meals [0/?]

  86. Try new desserts [0/?]

  87. Create an exercise routine

  88. Learn about fitness

  89. Learn about nutrition

  90. Get new glasses

  91. Balance my diet

  92. Drink water in a glass when at home

  93. Spend 28 days living Lolita [0/28]

  94. Spend 7 days being as positive as possible [0/7]

  95. Complete Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain

  96. Create schedule for a Day of Art

  97. Have a Day of Art

  98. Create a schedule for a Day of Spirituality

  99. Have a Day of Spirituality

  100. Create a Schedule for a Day of Health

  101. Have a Day of Health

25 Things I Plan on Doing for Myself

  • Sep. 20th, 2008 at 1:25 PM
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  1. Live Lolita, even if you cannot wear it yet.
  2. Always eat healthily, being sick is no fun.
  3. Exercise daily, you want beauty and strength.
  4. Study hard, for classes and interests.
  5. Journal at least weekly, preferably everyday.
  6. Practice guitar for at least 60 minutes per week.
  7. Draw and write often, these things were once your life-blood.
  8. Do classwork daily and before other things.
  9. Learn Japanese.
  10. Practice drawing and writing, at least one everyday.
  11. Be more spiritual and practice what you preach.
  12. Study Wicca weekly.
  13. Smile at others and when you look in the mirror to brighten days.
  14. Learn to control your temper.
  15. Read fiction, one or more chapter per day.
  16. Read non-fiction, especially self-help, five chapters weekly.
  17. Keep busy, boredom kills good moods and motivation.
  18. Set goals and work towards them, reward yourself for small steps.
  19. Clean your room and keep it clean.
  20. Save money, don't spend it on things you don't really want.
  21. Do what needs to be done first.
  22. Meditate daily.
  23. Focus on what you want in the end of situations.
  24. Take care of yourself.
  25. Remember that you deserve this.

Oh my...

  • Sep. 19th, 2008 at 10:07 PM
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*YAWN* I'm so tired. My boyfriend, Chris, is here, so I am going to go convince him that it's bed-time. Good night, loves!
Love,
Tori

An Introduction

  • Sep. 19th, 2008 at 1:49 PM
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Hello friends!
I go by Tori, I'm a nineteen-year-old young woman from Randolph, Massachusetts in the United States of America. This journal will most likely be of many topics, but the original idea behind it is to log my journey into the world of Lolita. Currently, I do not have any Lolita clothing nor do I know much about the sub-culture itself. What I do have is a desire to know about it and experience it, what i know is I love the look and idea of it. I hope this is enough to get me started!  On my profile, you can see that I have joined many Lolita groups, I will be posting in them as soon as I am back from walking to the Corner Market for some soda. After that I will probably post here again.
See you all then!
Love from,
Tori